man ive just eaten 2 huge porterhouse steaks and am i stuffed. I loved every minute of it though even though i feel sick now. Would i do it again? i think i would, thats how much i love steak.

And there i go again, misuing the word love.

Honestly, over the last few days of Love education, ive realised that its really really hard to love as said in the bible. Not by my own crappy standards of love which i devote to a delicious cooked part of a cow, but love as stated by God. 1 Corinthians 13 states it clearly indeed. Do i tick all of the boxes?

Heck no! i fall short all time. Lets not even talk about loving my neighbour, i find it hard to love my family and my other close ones in the way God loves me. I try and try and honestly, ive been trying real hard since like forever, but there are times where its just too hard.

You know the think i really got out of today was that it sorta hit me was Jesus doesnt want to discourage us by telling us how impossible it is to love "as i have loved you", but so that we can find the power in him to do so. Stop trying? easier said than done mate. I mean, it contradicts the whole lets me more loving but lets stop trying? That messes with my mind. Geez, Corporate Finance anyone?

So Ive decided, Ima trust in him. Its truly impossible to love like Jesus. And only today did it really really hit me, its impossible to love like him all the time. Pastor Patrick said it, no one on Earth has ever loved unconditionally "all the time". Only Jesus. Then i started thinking of the verses which say Jesus has given us his spirit, and so on and so forth. So only Jesus has loved the way we are suppose to love, totally unconditionally right? And so its impossible for men.

But Praise the Lord, we have Christ in us so we can love God, love our neighbors, and love our fellow christians. Im pretty sure many of us have got a heck lot of more from today's sharing, perhaps something even deeper but for me, the bottom line is this, Christ in Me is able to be patient, Christ in me is able to be kind, Christ in me will not be jealous...

(I actually saw this on Jacq's door haha)

Friends, let keep each other accountable, to not fall short of his grace, that is, to not ever try on our own strength to reach this heights of love, but "try" to seek him and let him live through us instead. In my "impossible" relationships where i cannot try as i might to love, im going to trust in him to make it possible.

In His Love,:)

Jems